One of those nights

it's like this sometimes in the dark
when the direction of thoughts turn over and over
the mind boils and bubbles up with old torments
was it me?
did i cause this
what happened
why
no one answers
no one except me
sleep is a dream on these night
were the question plague and swarm
tired is more of a lifestyle then a temporary state
it's okay i deserve it
i can take it
it'snot a big deal
i was wrong wasn't i
isn't that why you left.
fuck all of this
why
it's just one of those fucking nights
the one were the headaches gather and throb
were no amount of breathing will fill your lungs
it's fine it's okay i'm okay?