Love and Loyalty

 I watched everything 

You preached  love and loyalty 

Your actions followed through 

Only just 

As long as there was praise 

That I didn't see 

I didn't see that need 

And when the cards began to fold 

And you ran away 

You shattered my perception

Betrayal sucked the air from my lungs  

But I finally saw everything

Love is not a feeling 

It's an action 

You were simply done acting 

Loyalty isn't suppose  to fade with the wind

Were you even loyal

I still love you but this still hurts 

You were suppose to be my example of love and loyaly

I expected too much of a human 

Armies Of the Ruin

I hope you can read between my words

 as clearly as I can read your lies 

I hope you see the battle line 

Go head

Across them 

It'll be fun 

Your twisted tongue infecting the young. 

Poison on your lips 

There’s one thing you missed 

You raised me

I know you

So I hope you read between the lines

It wouldn’t be any fun if you couldn't

Go head 

step across my battle line

You didn't know the ruin raise armies 

Thoughts Scattered in Hurricanes

                        I scour the 

world to find a word 

One word 

         that could describe

 how much I  despise 

the very essence      of your existence 

Your not even worth       the effort but

maybe it will  quell the  hurricanes in my head 

Say something, please

You are a whisper 

In and age were people shouts 

Your lack of noise terrifies me 

cause I don't know if your okay

Please be okay

Come back

I hate the way my tears drip off my cheeks 

I hate the way you can’t let me in 

This is how our year begins 

Again 

Late night with toyed emotions 

Fuck her 

and fuck emotions 

I don’t want them any more 

But my vision is blurry 

My chest is caved in 

And you still can’t let me in 

I would drop everything an run to you just say the word 

Please say the words 

Please let me in

Our Story

That's okay it’s okay 

Paint me this way if you will 

I’ll be the villain of our story

 I’ll  take the pain, I'll take the hurt

Knowing you’ll be okay 

And I’ll bleed dry 

Just to know your safe 

I’ll be the villain of our story 

and you will never know how much it broke my heart

I'm Not depressed I'm Just Tired

And sometimes I can’t help but stare at my gun 

But there is no guarantee that I get it right the first time

I want it to be the only time.

You just took them  

Poisoned them 

I knew it would be a waiting game but I’m just so tired 

I don’t want to care anyone more

You stole them 

Moved them away without a word 

I will likely never see them again 

I so tired of hating you.

 I’m so tired of you trying to my manipulate me. 

I am free of you but I’ve lost a huge part of life. 

You will never again dictate my relationships or have a say in my life.

I don’t care that you won’t be there

but it hurts

I will conquer the world and you don’t deserve to see it.  

But I won’t be able to share any of it with them. 

I won’t be able to see their lives because of you

 and I will never forgive you for that. 

You truly are despicable to me 

Your existence disgusts me

And this isn’t even the end 

Though sometimes I can’t but stare at my gun 

But there is no guarantee that I get it right the first time